Have been a bit stressed these past days, me and my boyfriend are kinda broke this month. We currently have about 100 SEK to live on until he gets his next salary. I am trying to stay positive and we are kind of used to being poor. So my diet consists of what we have at home, mostly sandwiches haha. The saddest part is that I might not be able to go come home to my family and friends for christmas, I looked forward to that so much!
Somehow, things always work out in the end, and money have a strange way to find their way into my bank account anyway. So I'm keeping my hopes up!
I belive everything happens for a reason. When I'm low on cash I can usually call my dad and he'll give me a couple of hundreds so I'll live but I haven't talked to him since the tv-show. Maybe this is a sign that I should maybe answers his calls now? He have called me three times now but I've been a coward and not dared to answer. I still really don't know what exactly to say to him, he will never be able to see this the way I see it.
When all my noodles and sandwiches have run out and I have nothing more to eat, maybe my pride will succumb to my hunger and I'll be able to face my fear.
Some positive things about being poor: You start to enjoy all the small things. The best part of the day was when I ate an orange. It have never tasted so sweet as it did today.
You try harder to make your life work. I'm looking for people to help me with my site and I'm gonna apply for a job. Maybe that won't give me money this month, but it will prevent this from happening again.
Somehow, I appreciate my boyfriend more. Even though his lack of working got us into this situation I still feel safe when we cuddle at night and when we're making dinner out of nothing. Maybe you can really survive on only love after all?